Crimson Bisque

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

tuesdays.... a rather good day cos it means you've survived monday haha

caught stepford wives yesterday... really not a bad show... would a man really want a perfect woman? or vice versa for that matter...

i suppose it'll be all fun and games for a while.. but then wouldn't it be totally boring.. i mean variety is the spice of life..

though some may strive to find the perfect man/woman.. nobody's perfect.. so you shouldn't expect everyone else to be. plus what kind of relationship would you have if there's no challenge.. grinding things out and working them through makes a relationship stronger... so when things get tough.. you know for sure that your partner will be by your side.. and that though you both may disagree you'll know for sure that the ultimate aim is to stay together... not to brush the problem aside or to let the relationship slide.

watched dirty pretty things later on at night... twas a pretty good show... gritty and thought provoking... but it seriously vilified sex for me.. sounds strange but true... as in the thought of having sex is just superbly gross.. well in the movie this muslim girl was forced to:

A. Go down on a guy
B. Have sex with another guy

FYI the girl is really french and was erm acting as a turkish girl... and therefore isn't really muslim.. but still... it made sex into such a dirty thing.. something those in power just take at will... a commodity more than the priceless gift it is. God intended sex to be an expression of love, not the casual, glamourous tool/symbol of power as expressed in the media... sigh... dunno why. there is a right time, right place and right person for sex i believe. and if they're really the right person for you, then i suppose they can afford to wait. still finding it a little difficult to wash away the dirty feeling i get when i hear the word sex... hmmm.... have to remember it's original intention i suppose...

maybe it's the way we're brought up as well... sex is a taboo word that you don't hear at the dinner table... heck... with all the strong M18 R21 ratings being slapped on films.. i'm not surprised that we don't talk about it.. heck some pple don't even know much abt it to even begin to talk abt it. is ignorance bliss? or begging for trouble?

is that why some pple grow up thinking sex is shameful? i suppose, that in a way is a good deterrent.. but it's not a right one... it shouldn't be shameful cos your folks told you so... it should be shameful if lets say it was just used for physical fulfillment only.. without any emotional input whatsoever... or perhaps done outside marriage? well you can call me traditional for saying that i suppose... but i'll stand by it....

then again are teenagers (or anyone who's emotionally immature) who wouldn't understand the value of emotions, the value of sex.. should this be the target group for the "sex is dirty" campaign? or would that just make it a forbidden fruit... hence pre-puberscent, or heck men in general. or even women for that matter, watching porn?

so many questions.. but i don't have the answers.. maybe there are no standard answers.. all we can do is prepare the youth of today/tomorrow to face the emotional challenges ahead... give them the facts... give them skills to develop their EQ.... *shrug*

phew after all that.... i guess sex isn't that dirty after all.... BUT.... with all the emotional implications... it certainly isn't something to be taken lightly either....

today was a real busy day... woke up at 740 to accompany mum to raffles hospital... managed to say hi to Eye/ENT and Children's and Counselling Centre pple.... then we headed to ghim moh to get a few things:

1. face cleanser for my maid.. the poor girl has a pimple outbreak...
2. a packet of bak ku teh spices to try.. it's DAMN good (had it for dinner tonight)
3. a packet of dried mushrooms and some taiwanese sausage to try... but that's for tmr though...
4. mee sua... don't think you can get it there
5. more ginseng

then headed to holland v to get some pork floss as well as a box so i can ship some of my stuff over 1st...

came back... started with filling up my application form for relief teaching...turned into mass multitasking with:

1. filling up the application only to remember that...
2. i have to be sworn in next year so went on the net to check out the procedure and printed a copy for reference.. thankfully i can need to do with btwn 2 may 2005 to 1 may 2006... plenty of time... then i realised
3. eh isn't my passport expiring soon?! CRAP?! what if i need to renew it before i leave... luckily it expires 29 sept 2005... so will do my oath taking and passport renewing at the same time probably....
4. admist all this was talking to Narin abt starting sch on MSN... then realised... CRAP i haven't sent in my matric form!!!! die die... read the matric form... if i submit the form before 15/09/2004 i should be able to collect my matric card slightly earlier... but damn... to submit the matric form i need a copy of my payment... which i can't do as yet since i don't have money in my account!
5. upon realising that... my dad called.. haha heng man... so i asked him... he said it should be done by monday or tuesday.... okie... but i don't think my letter will make the 15/09/2004 mark..nvmind.. just wait a little longer for the matric card... still the same ugly picture anyway haha..... as i was doing that i started to think....
6. better start packing... so i built up the box i got from the post office and began to pack some things in... leaving my room only SLIGHTLY neater.... as i was doing that i realised...
7. CRAP i didn't buy the flat sheet for my bedsheets... better get that tmr.... man time REALLY flies fast.. so i remembered... crap.. better buy a scrap book... wanted to do an amsterdam thingy... hope i still have time to do it.... plus read some books i bought (autograph man, the complete idiot's guide to angels and the complete idiot's guide to life of the saints... erm they were interesting titles and going for 3 for 10 bucks at funan where i was at on sunday! mum and dad bought shoes..... hmmmm going rather off tangent)

with all those thoughts swirling in my head... i had to dash off to send in my relief teaching form... lo and behold when i got there they said the form is only online... but i distinctly remember that the person said i had to come in in person... after a lot of bouncing around.. i finally got round to sitting and the computer terminal... only to realise that they don't allow you to apply for relief teaching next year... only this year... heck lah.. i really really give up.... wasted all my time filling up the form then making copies of the certs...

then went to maplewoods to ask abt tenants... only to realise the person we were supposed to ask.... WENT ON VACATION TO JAKARTA.... sigh

to rub salt into the wound... the t shirt guy.. who i had to call like 3 times... told me that the art work sample for the shirt can only come in TMR...

it was supposed to come in today.... the 1st 2 times i called he said he'll get back to me... the 3rd time i called he said it'll only be in tmr... (*%%^$^$# was REALLY peeved... tmr is family day! BOTH my parents will be taking leave for once! it's really THAT rare!:(

sigh.... it was a good morning... bad afternoon... and worse night (though the bak ku teh and the sushi and rainbow layer cake i bought did make it slightly better) but i have PAINFUL cramps.. *groan*

tmr will be a better day... *crosses fingers, toes, eyes, legs, arms and all other appendages*

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