twas great.. had a nice white tent with tables underneath for dining... had a bar... all in the swimming pool later.. then a band played at the other end of the swimming pool.... lim kay siu sang steamroller blues as well! haha... that was surprising... i didn't know he sang as well.. yep.. him and his bro (lim kay tong) were there...
was talking to one of my cousins and yeah i agree with you kevin kor... it's like another world when we come to their parties... all the high society pple... rich, gorgeous, powerful... sigh... but it's nice to know that they haven't forgotten their family no matter how rich they have become....
hmm... seeing the girls there.. REALLY makes me wanna lose weight... sigh... was a really nice party.. and i'm sure she enjoyed it...
it was really strange this party.. sorta made me think... i mean these pple have so many things that so many pple out there desire... and when i look at myself.. i think i'm really happy... sure it's nice to be gorgeous, thin and rich.. i may not have all that.. but i think i'm actually happy with my situation... i really am grateful for what God has given me..
despite all this i think i'm falling into depression and i don't know why... i can just sit and cry for a period of time.. it's been a long time since this happened to me... at least the last time i knew why i was depressed... now.. is it because i'm tired? is it because i disappoint myself? is it because i disappoint my parents? is it because i think i've not lived up to God's standards?
must figure out a way out of this... nothing seems right any more.. just want to curl up and cry ALONE... at the same time i crave company.. yet i feel that company wears me out.. so i end up tired then i become more depressed... i really don't know what to do...
maybe sometimes life CAN be too much to take on... and every time you're down you just have to figure out how to reset your tolerance level to a higher one...
now i think i know what karen means by silent screams... i feel so foolish for being so weak or are these tears my way of dealing with these things?
i wish these tears gone.. yet i just wish i could cry harder and be rid of these gloomy days....
so should i cry or should i not?
until i figure out the answer i'll just have to cry, cos i really don't know what else to do.
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-raison d'être-
Crimson Bisque
Seconded by her friends
Hooked after a few blogs
Doomed to express herself
every now and then
Crimson: red
Bisque: White unglazed porcelein
Crimson bisque:
A little rough around the edges,
rather fragile and stained red by the
change Jesus death and his blood
has brought about in my life
